A Knowing Heart
By Rabbi Label Lam
And Moshe said so to the children of Israel, and they did not listen to
Moshe because of “shortness of breath” and the difficulty of the work.
Because of shortness of breath and the difficulty of the work: not because
they didn't believe in HASHEM and his prophecy, but they just couldn’t pay
attention to his words because of the pressure from the hard work. (Ramban)
Now Moshe had just given over the news – the prophecy of the redemption.
That should have excited the hearts of the people but they remained numb. It
should have been cause for celebration but it turned out to be a point of
frustration for Moshe. The Torah does not tell us that they did not believe
in Moshe or his prophecy, but only that they could not hear it because of
the pressure. It is explicitly stated earlier that they believed in Moshe
but now they were just unable to process the promise. Since “we are
believers and the children of believers”, it's therefore, not natural for a
Jew not to believe. Not everyone is fully aware of the presence of this
“believing-self” though, for multiple reasons.
My own personal experience interacting with many types of people for a few
decades plus- tells me the same. An anecdotal- case in point: A young man I
know very well who is, how shall I say, married to a situation that closes
his mind to an authentic search for meaning in Torah and Mitzvos; He was out
of work for some time and was very excited to tell me when he finally landed
a new job. He explained in detail how the event unfolded. He had gone for a
job interview on a late Friday afternoon in midtown Manhattan and then
proceeded to Grand Central Station for the train ride home. He got the call
first thing Monday morning. He realized then retroactively that they must
have been discussing which candidate was most worthy for the job just at
that time when he was going through Grand Central Terminal on his way to the
He explained with the conviction of a “true believer” that as he entered the
train station that frigid evening he confronted a cold and hungry man
begging for help. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a bundle of
money including a load of loose change and while pouring into the fellow’s
cup he implored him not to spend the money on a drink or drugs but rather
on a warm meal.
This secular minded mechanist was convincing me that it was exactly at the
same time that he was exercising compassion for this poor stranger that they
were making the decision about the fate of his employment status. He then
looked to me for approval but I was too stunned with amazement.
Foolishly I fed him his very own words and asked him if he is telling me
that that act of charity had somehow catalyzed and caused the committee to
select his resume above the others?! Upon hearing my understanding of his
account, he recoiled with incredulity and immediately began to re-explain
the dynamics at play. "Oh no- they saw the quality of kindliness in me when
I was there and they realized that this job requires a people-person not
just a number-cruncher. That's why I got the job!"
Only when confronted consciously with his own chronicle, which was
unmistakably filled with a naturally deep faith and trust in the Divine
Providence of a living G-d, did he feel the need to revise his-story! He
just couldn’t hear of it because of certain external circumstances.
Recently a young lady called me stressed out with news that a cousin of
hers had declared that he does not believe in HASHEM. After a lengthy
discussion about how she might approach him, I told her that I don't believe
that he doesn't believe in HASHEM. He might speak brazenly with bold words
and loads of bravado to make some shocking proclamations, but deep down
inside, I strongly suspect, there beats a knowing heart.
DvarTorah, Copyright © 2007 by Rabbi Label Lam and Torah.org.