A Depressing World
Chapter 4, Mishna 29(b)
By Rabbi Dovid Rosenfeld
"He (Rabbi Elazar HaKappar) used to say: The born will die, the dead will
come to life, and the living will be judged -- [so that] they know, make
known, and become aware that He is G-d, He is the Fashioner, He is the
Creator, He is the One who understands, He is the Judge, He is the Witness,
He is the Litigant, and He will eventually judge. Blessed be He, for there
is not before Him wrongdoing, forgetfulness, favoritism, or the acceptance
of bribes -- for all is His. And know that everything is according to a
reckoning. And do not let your evil inclination assure you that the grave is
a refuge for you -- for against your will were you created, against your
will were you born, against your will do you live, against your will will
you die, and against your will will you stand in judgment before the King of
kings, the Holy One, blessed be He."
In the previous class we discussed the concept of G-d's absolute justice and
the fact that all humankind will eventually stand in judgment before G-d. As
we wrote, although the concept of facing our Creator may seem frightening,
it is comforting as well. Knowing that the world and all that occurs in it
do not escape G-d's justice tells us that the world is not such a G-dless
place. It is not removed from G-d's cognizance or forsaken by Him (G-d
forbid!), even if temporarily evil seems to reign free. Everything is
weighed and measured by G-d. No act, no matter how great or small, escapes
His notice. All will eventually be brought to justice, and ultimately the
world will become a reflection of the G-d from which it emanated.
Yet, at the same time, our mishna contains a very depressing message -- of
man's helplessness to control his fate. It seems that creation is not only
out of man's control; it is against his will. Against our will were we
created and born, against our will do we live and die, and against our will
will we stand in judgment before G-d. Why is this so?
I believe on the simplest level, this phenomenon is borne out in human
nature. Man is simply resistant to change -- and the new challenges thereby
incurred. Birth, growth, and life in general thrust upon us greater
challenges and obligations: growing up, making decisions, selecting a
career, settling down, raising small children, raising adolescent children,
etc. Our lives and relationships become increasingly more complex. We often
wistfully look back towards our childhood and younger days, when life was
simple and carefree.
The Torah, however, instructs us to move on; it establishes this as the way
of the world: "Therefore shall a man leave his father and mother and cleave
unto his wife" (Genesis 2:24). At each stage of our lives, we sacrifice the
protection, security and familiarity upon which we once relied and are
forced to accept ever increasing challenges and obligations.
The Sages tell us that this is true in creation itself. The soul is created
against its will: It is given an existence it would not have wanted had it
theoretically been able to decide. Neither would a soul in heaven --
comfortable and content in the upper spheres -- want to enter a developing
fetus. Finally, an unborn baby has little desire to leave the controlled and
sheltered environment of its mother's womb. Knowing the difficulty of life
and the many trials, disappointments and failures we will face, it will
sadly be difficult to claim our lives will have been worthwhile. Before the
fact, life is just a risk we should not want to take.
But there's a more frightful aspect to this. This is not simply an issue of
man's resistance to change. I feel we have a deeper, more gnawing sense of
uneasiness about the universe we know.
The Talmud (Eiruvin 13b) quotes the following cryptic discussion: For two
and a half years the Schools of Shammai and Hillel debated. One claimed it
would have been better had man not been created than his having been
created. The other argued it would have been better to have been created.
They then concluded: It would have been better not to have been created. But
now that man was created, let him examine his deeds.
What does such a debate mean?
First of all, it goes without saying that the great scholars of the Talmud
were not questioning G-d's will or doubting His justice. They realized that
G-d's wisdom -- which called for a world -- was correct and beyond human
question. Their question, however, was deeper: Can *we* understand this
world? True, G-d has His inscrutable motives, but how are we to make sense
of the world? Can we honestly feel *right* about it? Was the entire gamble
worth it? Has man truly justified creation? Should G-d have really put so
much effort into fashioning a universe with so little to show for itself?
Has it all really been worthwhile?
The way the world appears to us, it is hard to believe. Are the six or seven
billion souls living here sanctifying the Name of G-d? Or are they living
their own small, selfish lives? Are we sanctifying ourselves as spiritual
beings in human bodies? Or are we vulgarizing ourselves into animals with a
greater cranial capacity? (This reminds me of a news item a few years back
about an exhibit of "homo sapiens" at the London Zoo. Is that all human
beings are? Another specimen to view in its natural habitat?) Is the world
becoming a reflection of spirituality and goodness? Are we bringing the
world closer to G-d? Or are we doing far more harm than good to our fellow
man, the world, and our environment?
I sometimes imagine how depressed G-d must be at times like Rosh Hashanah --
if such a thing could be said. Here He is, ready to review His creations and
judge man over the past year. He looks down, and what does He see? So little
recognition of Him. Billions of people who have not the faintest idea who
G-d is and why they were created. Billions who have grossly contorted views
of theology -- if they have views at all. The truth of G-d's reality has
hardly penetrated; no thought of spiritual growth, no treasuring G-d's holy
nation, only thoughts of surviving, making ends meet, and fulfilling man's
And one small nation remains -- a nation which G-d to begin with had to set
apart after practically giving up on the rest of the world. And how is that
nation faring? Are we role models to the world? Is mankind learning from our
example? Or are we downtrodden, despised and ridiculed, if not openly oppressed?
And how good an example are we setting to begin with? I mean, of the 13 or
so million Jews in this world (who might at least have some idea they're
Jewish), how many are even moderately observant? And of those how many are
*truly* committed -- other than just going through motions and performing
some ritual? And that infinitesimal sliver of humanity is basically all G-d
has to show for Himself down here, out of billions of souls -- out of this
great and depressing world of His. There are cryptic Talmudic passages which
refer to G-d as crying in His inner chambers -- over the Exile, the
suffering, and the absence of the Divine Presence (see Chagiga 5b and
Jeremiah 13:17). For *this* I fashioned My beautiful world? For *this*?!
This is all I have out of everything I created and all I have bequeathed
upon the world? Perhaps we too should occasionally shed a tear for G-d.
It is true that one of Judaism's fundamental tenets is that the world *will*
reach its fruition at the End of Days when the Messiah will arrive to redeem
us. But even so, it's hard to truly claim it was all worth it. Won't the
Messiah basically be imposing belief upon an otherwise apathetic, uncaring
world -- a world which would have never gotten there on its own? Will that
justify everything we and all of mankind have suffered throughout? Will it
have really all been worth it?
And this I feel is a part of our mishna's message. We are doomed to live in
a universe we cannot make sense of. We were forced into it. We would not
have wished creation upon ourselves or anyone else. We are consigned to a
world which we would not have wanted to be a part of -- simply because to us
it really does not make sense.
Of course, we are not questioning G-d's wisdom and certainly not His ability
to act as He sees fit. However, as near as human beings can figure, the
world does not make sense. We, the few out of billions who recognize our
Creator and attempt to serve Him, try and fail, while the vast majority of
mankind does not even know enough to try. We must resign ourselves to muted
service of and submission before a G-d whose ways and wisdom are
incomprehensible -- and in our own small and simple way, we must "examine
So we end our chapter (this is the final mishna) on a somber note, yet it is
also a note which offers hope. Perhaps the workings of the world are beyond
our ken, but "everything is according to a reckoning." It is precisely the
incomprehensible nature of the world that assures us all is just. The world
-- as we see it -- does not make sense. Yet we are also told that this
question is beyond the ability of humans to answer -- and is therefore not a
mystery humans must solve. We can feel secure in the knowledge that on the
level of the Divine, the world does make sense, and it is and will be a
place of truth, justice, and beauty. We may, with assurance, leave its inner
workings to that perfect yet inscrutable Being, while in our own small way,
attempt to serve Him, examine our deeds, and slowly bring the world to the
greatness for which it is destined.
With this and with G-d's help, we have completed the fourth chapter.
Text Copyright © 2010 by Rabbi Dovid Rosenfeld and Torah.org.